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I started writing Fake It Till You Mean It in 2015. Back then, it was lighter. A queer romcom with fake dating, wedding chaos, and just enough sarcasm to keep the feelings at bay. It was fun. Clever. A little manic.
And then life happened.
I shelved it. And when I came back to it in 2022, I wasn’t the same. My world had shifted. Suddenly, I didn’t want to write a story about pretending to be okay—I wanted to write a story about what pretending costs.
So I gutted it.
Stripped out the quirk. Kept the wit. Dug into the ache.
What remains is a book that still makes you laugh, but leaves a bruise.
So What’s It About?
At its surface, Fake It Till You Mean It is a destination wedding romcom. Micah Sloan flies to Hawaii for his sister’s big day and runs into Jace—his ex, his unresolved everything, and now the guy asking him to play pretend one last time.
“It’s just for the week,” Jace says. “A little performance for the family. Like old times.”
Only… it doesn’t feel fake for long.
What unfolds isn’t just a love story—it’s a reckoning. With memory. With timing. With the fragile spaces between “used to” and “never stopped.”
Why I Wrote It (The Second Time)
In 2015, I was chasing charm. In 2022, I was chasing truth.
Because there’s a version of this story where they get back together and everything is perfect and easy and adorable.
But that’s not real.
And Fake It Till You Mean It is, above all, about what’s real.
“We always said we’d circle back when the timing was right,” Micah whispers. “This isn’t the timing I imagined.”
This book is for the people who love messily. Who reconnect too late or maybe just in time. Who don’t always get closure—but sometimes get something better: clarity.
Paradise Isn’t the Point
Hawaii is the backdrop, yes. But not the escape. It’s the crucible.
There’s heat and laughter and flower crowns. But there’s also silence. Regret. Unfinished sentences. Shared beds and shared guilt.
“Everything was beautiful. Which somehow made it worse.”
They aren’t falling in love again. They’re confronting the version of themselves that once did—and wondering what they’ve lost in the space between.
There’s a Twist—But Not the Kind You Think
I won’t spoil it.
What I will say is that Fake It Till You Mean It shifts in tone in a way that sneaks up on you. One moment you’re laughing. The next, you’re holding your breath.
Because sometimes life does that too.
“You ever love someone so much, even pretending not to hurts like hell?”
The turn isn’t loud. It doesn’t crash. It reveals itself slowly—like grief pretending to be nostalgia. Like joy with a time limit.
The Hidden Message
At its heart, this book is about impermanence.
The kind of connection that doesn’t need a future to matter. The kind of love that doesn’t last forever but still counts.
A story about how sometimes, we get one more week. One more shot. One more moment in the sun.
And that’s enough.
“This wasn’t perfect. But it was real. And for once, that was enough.”
It’s a book about how we fake it to protect ourselves—until we can’t. And how sometimes, pretending is what brings the truth to the surface.
Why This Story Still Matters
I know what it’s like to carry feelings you never fully unpacked.
To see someone again and wonder, Was that it? Was that the last time we were ever real?
This book is for the ones who don’t always get closure. Who miss the window. Who circle back too late—but feel everything anyway.
Fake It Till You Mean It is about loving someone, even when you don’t know how to hold them.
Even when you’re pretending.
Even when it can’t last.
Read It Here
Grab Fake It Till You Mean It if you want a queer love story that makes you laugh, ache, spiral a little, and then breathe deeply into something unspoken.
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Because sometimes, even a short love story leaves a long echo.